A mess

I've been enjoying the past week off from classes and clinical. I still have a little over a week left of vacation. I've had plenty of time to reflect on these past 11 months and the 2 months left have got me a little stir crazy. On one hand, i'm excited that I've made it this far. On the other hand...I'm scared shitless because...I've made it this far. Feb 26 is D day, so to speak. I'm not sure if I'm ready. I've had the book smarts to get this far and I feel in my element during clinicals, but still...am I ready to be on my own, taking care of other people. THeir lives in my hands. That's a huge responsibility....and part of me wonders just what I'm getting myself into.

I do know that I am going backj to bridge to the RN program, and will either start in the March class, or the August class. So there I go again...ready to stick my neck out there and go through this hell of nursing school even more...to be responsible for even more. Scary.

When i go back to class Jan 4th, I'm just going to focus on the classes we have left and take it one day at a time. Come February...I'm really going to be a mess.